i think the key to delaying the onset of crappy feelings is to busy yourself into denial

not sure why it took me so long to realise that what is familiar isn’t always good, and what is good doesn’t always have to be familiar. why had i always been so eager to return to terrains i’ve known my whole life? there are always diverging roads, why had i been so hesitant to try? one can’t learn and grow that way. i know this now